Fell on my ass TWICE today
Today has been quite a strange day. I wanted to go to downtown ruidoso to shop for native themed decorations for my massage room. While walking from the car to the downtown area,, we had to cross a patch of ice. Careful though I was, I slipped, my feet shot right out in front of me and I land STRAIGHT on my tailbone. the lower area, where the tailbone meets the cocyx...i am so spelling that wrong. it's the vestige of a tail we all have that hangs off the bottom of your tailbone and it HURT like hell. I scraped my hand up falling and everything and I was in pain. But I figured I could still walk around and shop cause i'm not a baby. macho me. you know.

so we walk around for a couple hours, score a couple deals (pictures forthcoming) and then go to the grocery store. I get some things and then ron and i get in line. we're talking about how terrible it must be to get old and die, and fall all the time and break hips and pelvises and all other sorts of awful things. I said, maybe that's what my dad thought...I don't want to get old and die...might as well die now.

We're standing in line for a few minutes when I start to feel naseuas...then a little dizzy. I figure I'll just ignore it. Then it gets stronger. I say to ron "i'm feeling naseaus and dizzy. I think I might pass out." -- my memory ends there.

cut to - me waking up, i'm on my back, ron is kneeling over me saying "are you alright sweetie? are you all right?"  apparently i said "yeah, why?" but i don't remember that part. i remember saying "Whoa, that was weird!" cause it felt like i could have been out for hours, but apparently it was only about a minute.

I felt VERY weak, could hardly get up. when I tried to get up i just wanted to lay down again on the grocery store floor, so I did that for awhile. they called the ambulence, and i wasn't in any position to go anywhere so we waited and they came to diagnose me. i was hoping for some info.

NONE! blood pressure was low but normal for me. heart rate was low, but hello, i just passed out, blood sugar was normal - apparently the person who "took control of the situation" (think your cpr class - "YOU! call 911!") decided i was having a diabetic seizure and forced me to drink A LOT of orange juice which I later threw up. i just looked really pale and felt really weak and was shaking like a leaf. i was FREEZING! So after i refused to go to the hospital and they tried to convince me to like three times, they finally left. This little girl came up to me, she and her mom had been standing in line ahead of us, and she gave me a single red rose. she said, "This is for you. I hope you feel better." I was amazed and felt blessed. I was in this foggy state of "i just want to lay in my bed" but she made me feel happy right then.

Ron asked if i was ready to go and i was. He took the groceries out to the car while I waited in the wheelchair. yes, they had gotten me a wheel chair. while he was gone i heard the girl's mother say "Go stand next to her until he comes back." She was probably 8-10 yrs old. She came over and said, "I'm going to stay with you until he comes back." It was so sweet! It was really just very cool.

Ron comes back, wheels me to the car and I get in. This is when I puke half the OJ into the plastic shopping bag i was carrying because i felt nauseas. gross. now i had to hold it for the whole car ride.

Finally we get home. (on the drive up to the house i threw up the rest of the OJ out the open car door) I got straight to my bed and as soon as i'm horizontal and bundled up i feel a MILLION times better. I was still shivering like hell though. I called my mom and told her the whole story and that made me feel better too. I finally stopped shivering. Ron made us some pizza and after eating it i felt much better. i found a thermometer and took my temperature. 100.6 not too high, but now i knew why i was shivering. After eating I felt a million times better, not so weak, not so shivery, and my fever started going down.

Now my ass just hurts. I guess I fell on it a second time when I fell in the grocery store. lucky i was out for that because it would have hurt a lot more than the first time. I can't bend over or do some other simple tasks. Luckily sitting is not painful. That's what i was worried about.

One of the strangest days. I'm sure the two falls had something to do with each other, but i don't know. Maybe some theories next time.

One thing is that after the whole incident all I can report is an overwhelming feeling of gratefulness. That ambulence guys come that fast and are there only to help. That ron was there by my side the whole time doing anything he could for me. And that I actually do have my health, I didn't have a serious problem. Even though some of it was scary, I was really taken care of and that felt enormously good, even through all the wacked out body feelings I was having.